Think Your Life’s Hard?


Many people going through problems think there is nothing else to do with their lives. Well that is false. Going through hard times can be heart breaking, especially for children who grow up not knowing the actual stories of what has happened in their past. I have experienced bullying and I still do sometimes, what people said to me made me believe them and it made me feel like I was going to be miserable or depressed for the rest of my life. I don’t really care about what they say or do but sometimes it makes me think twice. When I do think of it my mind tells me not to. Have you ever heard of the saying ‘the minute you start thinking about what others say about you is the minute you stop being yourself’ 

The other day I was listening to a song called fill a heart by Tori Kelly. The song made me realise that everything I have went through was nothing compared to people in third world countries who suffer the unthinkable pain of hunger and poverty. I listened to the song over 30 times. A Lot I know! The message came across to me of how grateful I should be for everything I have. I do not have things that other teenagers would like a phone, Xbox or other technology things. I have a few but the most important thing I’m glad to have is a roof over my head, a table with food and a supportive family by my side. My family is very small since it’s just me, my mum and brother in the house but I would never ask for a better family.

England’s money issues seem to be getting worse every year but I know one day in a couple of years I will be the one coming home from work helping my family instead of my mum. Recently a week or two ago in geography we were learning about earthquakes in certain countries. I know if I was a child in one of those eruptions I wouldn’t survive two minutes let alone a whole week or more. Many people my age (13 1/2) don’t know how serious these disasters are and think that if they were in others positions they would be fine. No they wouldn’t. Countries like Syria, Ukraine, Afghanistan etc… go through so much, anyone who isn’t in their position wouldn’t understand how much they go through every day and night. Waking up to go through school everyday is hard when people don’t except you but waking up or even falling asleep to a place where people are killing each other and protesting is much harder.

If the whole world had qualifications everything would be the same. These days you can’t live without money but no matter how unfair it sounds or is that’s just the way it will always be. There will never be that one day when the whole world will get together and help one another but there will always be that day when you can help along with others. Even if you help 1% every percent counts.

Tori Kelly – Fill A Heart

There so many lives
Struggling to find
Just a little bit more
Trying to provide
Barely getting by
Could be right next door
No one should be left alone in the dark
With love, fill a broken heart
I know we can make the world better
If we come together
You gotta believe thatWe can change the outcome
If we join in
reach out a hand
All it takes is someone
Stepping forward and make it a stand
you and I, is where it starts
You and I can be a part
Feed a soul
Fill a heart
Feed A soul
Fill a Heart x3

You fell like giving up
Doubts are growing but you
Gotta keep on somehow
Hear the sound of hope
Let everybody know
We have the power to turn this around

No one should be left alone in the dark
With Love, fill a broken heart
I know we can make the world better
If we come together
You gotta believe that

We can change the outcome
If we join in
Reach out a hand
All it takes is someone
Stepping forward and make it a stand
You and I, is where it start
You and I can be a part
Feed a soul
Fill a heart
Feed a soul
Fill a Heart x3

Hear the sound of hope
Let everybody know
(Let everybody know)

we can change the outcome
If we join in
So reach out a hand
All it takes is someone
Stepping forward so lets make a stand

We can change the outcome
If we join in
And Reach out a hand
All it takes is someone
Stepping forward and make it a stand
You and I, is where it start (Feed a soul, Fill a Heart)
You and I can be a part (Feed a Soul, Fill a Heart)
No need to look very far
Right here is where it start (Feed a soul, Fill a heart)
Feed a soul
Fill a heart

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You are not alone

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I have always wanted to talk about this topic but I have never had the confidence to. I usually talk to a school guidance councilor about my family problems since sometimes they are to much for me. Talking to a friend has made me realize I am not the only one who struggles a lot.

After I turned 1 my parents divorced, because I was so young I did not know what was going on. My dad used to come and see me every weekend and take me to my nans (his mum) house. I used to love playing with the toys they had. When I turned 10 that was the last time I saw him till i was 12.

When I saw him my eyes filled with tears. He looked at me and was shocked of how tanned my skin had became. When I was a baby my skin was lighter than milk white.

Yes I was light!

Our conversation was quiet awkward since there was a few pauses. Before he left he said he’d take me out the next week. But he didn’t. I was upset but faked a smile and I cried to myself. Every time my dad broke his promise to me I just sat in the corner of my room and cried for hours. No one ever knew.

After a while I ignored him but my mum persuaded me to forgive him. I forgive him and he lied to me. My mum asked me if my dad had a baby girl or boy, I was confused until she told me my dad had had a child. I was so hurt I burst into tears under my blanket where no one could see me.

My cousin who is in my class told me it was a boy and showed me a picture. My baby brother is absolutely beautiful. He looks just like my auntie. I also have a 6 year old sister who I had only seen once or twice when I was younger.

I’m never aloud to go to my dads house because his wife does not like me. I’m not aloud to see my brother or sister because of their mum. What I don’t understand is why won’t my dad stick up for me? Why won’t he let his own daughter visit his own house because of his mean wife? Why can’t I see my own siblings?

The last time my dad had spoken to me was 2 months ago. Usually people who have divorced parents see their mum or dad every week. I only see my dad once or twice in a couple of months. My mum does not understand me, she always tells me he is busy but what she doesn’t understand is that it’s hard. It’s really hard to think that a person you love doesn’t love you as much as you love them.

Most of my life I have been lied to. People say I can trust them and when I do they break that trust. But I know I’m not alone. I know there are people who hate me so much they would kill me if they had a chance, but what I also know is that there are people who love me. My mum, brother, family, true friends, they all love me and I love them.

I remember when I used to feel like the whole world hated me. I soon realized it was all in my head. None of it was true it was just my conscience. I was never alone. No one is ever alone. Even if they know absolutely no one there is still someone out there waiting to love someone like them.

Just a reminder to anyone who is reading this, you are not alone and you never will be because you are absolutely beautiful in every single way. Be lucky to have what you have and appreciate it like you will never see it again. And if you feel like your alone read my blogs and I will always be there. Smile because your amazing xxx

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Hair care products under £5 from bodycare

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Many people have asked about what I put in my hair so I decided to blog about it. My hair isn’t very long but slightly falls down under my chest. The other day I went to the mall with my mum. We stopped at bodycare and bought a lot more than we were meant to (this isn’t even the half of it)!

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The shockwave hair spray isn’t as good as I thought it would be but I do recommend it. I think it is because my hair cannot hold curls with or without many hair products so the hairspray does not improve anything and does not work effectively. My hair is thick and dry (argan oil helps my hair massively) and is not used to keeping curls in one shape. When i wear my hair curly they would only last for an hour or two, I prefer to braid it over night so that my hair would be wavy and bouncy in the morning.

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Many places you would buy Macadamia oil would put a high price on them but in bodycare the shampoo only costs £1! Macadamia oil is filled with rich nutrients and multi vitamins. I only ever wash my hair once or maybe twice a week (I use dry shampoo btw). I know it sounds gross but washing your hair everyday takes out all of the natural oils that help your hair grow disappear. Although if you have a lot of dandruff i suggest you should wash your hair eery two days. Also washing your hair everyday can make your hair greasier since your hair is used to having the oils washed away regularly. I would absolutely buy this again once it has finished not only because of how it helps my hair but because of the lovely smell 😍😍😍

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This argan oil shampoo and conditioner has helped my hair get thicker than it was before. I used to straighten my hair everyday and it was badly damaged and I also had with split ends but now I tie it back all the time. Only on special occasions is when I put any heat on my hair, I would definitely recommend this for thin and damaged hair.

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Deep shampoos can help dandruff vanish as well as moisturizing your scalp, especially deep shampoos with essential oil extracts. If your thinking why my mum and I bought so many shampoos… Well I don’t actually Really know. This type of shampoo would be brilliant on itchy or dry scalps.

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Out of all the products I have bought my favorite would be the honey conditioner. It makes ALL of my split ends disappear and leaves my hair soft, silky and has the most sweetest scent. I would say absolutely buy this and you will not regret it!

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I know this is DEFINITELY something you would not put in your hair (!) but carrying sprays around with you is something essential. Especially in school if your sweating or feel like you smell funny. Smelling funny is the last thing you would want!

I hope you will buy some of these products I have mentioned since they are fantastic :) Thank you for reading my blog and sorry I take FOREVER to write new posts every week.

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My first blog (re-write)

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Sorry I haven’t been blogging a lot these days everyone!! I have been working on my book at the moment, most of you who read my blogs should know about. Once I have done my 100th page I will post one of my pages from my book up ;)

Also I got an email from Tom Palmer!!!

The other day I accidentally deleted my first blog and I was so upset. The first blog is usually the most important as it brings back memories from where you have started at. Since there is no way I will be able to bring my post back, I decided to re-do it a little.

My name is Mouhcina (moo-cena) Jazmin Begum. My dad named me Mouhcina because it means pure and innocent (which clearly is not me. At all!!), my uncle (dads brother) named me Jazmin after a flower.

I live with my mum 30 and brother 6 in England. Most people from other country’s like the weather from here for some reason. It rains. Practically everyday.

I am currently 13 but in 7 months (on 4th September same birthday as Beyonce and Ràul Albiol) I will be turning 14! I don’t see the big deal but I will still be turning 14 so I think I should take it as a big deal.

My mum wouldn’t let me take piano lessons since she is a single mother and needed the money, so I taught it to myself, and I have to say, I taught myself good!

Demi Lovato and her songs have inspired me to do so many things, like never to give up or to believe in myself. Also her song for the love of a daughter made me realize I was not the only one who went through hard times.

As a girl I don’t spend my time talking about hair and scream about breaking my nails. The only thing I ever talk is about football. Yes. Football. Real Madrid are the best team in the world. Not to many people but they are to me.

The person who has inspired me to write my blog is Zoella. Zoella is a YouTube blogger, I used to watch her blogs all the time to find out new things and beauty tips. But that was a long time ago when I was actually girly.

Growing up was difficult since there was a lot of problems in my family. Yes I cried myself to sleep every night and was always scared whenever I heard a loud noise, sometimes I still do, but I managed it. All on my own.

At first I felt like there was nothing to life other than problems, but I stayed strong. And I’m glad I did because I make a lot of people happy, and they make me happy too.

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50 facts about me

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I think it was just last year a tag became popular on YouTube called ’50 facts about me’ I really enjoyed watching different people doing the tag so I thought I should do it, but on a blog instead of YouTube.

1) Mo became my nickname in high school since many people could not pronounce my full name

2) My full name is Mouhcina (moo-cena) Jazmin Begum

3) I have the same birthday as Beyonce and Ràul Albiol

4) I am currently 13 yrs old

5) Iker Casillas is my favorite football player

6) I have supported Real Madrid since the age 11

7) My favorite singer is Demi Lovato

8) Whenever I first hear a song I hate it, but after I’ve listened to it a few times, I listen to it so much I get sick of it after a while! Unless its Demi!!!!!!!!!!

9) When I was 6 I wanted to be a singer, then when I turned 12 I wanted to be an actress THEN when I turned 13 I wanted to be a journalist but now I think I want to be a dentist 😊😊😊

Actually EW noooooooo

10) I have 2 half brothers and 1 half sister but I have only met my sister once, I live with one of my brothers but I have never met my baby half brother

11) Me and Mayisha (if you read my old posts you’d know) always have competitions about who can get the most followers and she always wins!!! FOLLOW ME ⬇⬇⬇⬇⬇⬇

12) My toes are bigger than my big toe

13) I have a very small thumb

14) Although I know a lot about football I can’t play it

15) I wear glasses and I have braces so I look like a geek!!!! Not purposely obviously

16) My favorite colour is blue and white

17) My favorite food is Chinese noodles and spaghetti bolagnese

18) I write songs and books

19) I learnt how to play the piano on my own

20) I played violin for a year

21) I like to read a variety of books

22) When I was smaller my mum used to always cut my hair into Bob cuts but now my hair is just higher than my elbow

23) I was born and raised up in England

24) in my gcses I have to get English baccalaureate degree

25) My mum had me when she was 17

26) Out of all my friends I am the most responsible which is WAY different than at home ;)

27) My favorite country is Spain

28) I am a very good cook!

29) I don’t have any full siblings

30) My mum doesn’t let me wear lipstick because she thinks I look older than my age

31) I’ve been blogging for 4 months

32) Pink Roses are my favorite flowers

33) My favorite tv show is Violetta

34) Harry Potter is my favorite movie

35) I have always wanted to marry a football player

36) I eat on both sides of my checks so I never eat in front of my mum or she laughs at me EXTREMELY

37) I cry a lot Whenever I watch movies or even tv shows I was even crying in the last episode of Wizards of Waverly place

38) I auditioned for house of Anubis online but sadly I didn’t get it :(

39) I LOVE it when people play with hair

40) Whenever I write my books I eat my little cousin to play with my hair and she hates it !

41) My favorite hair oil is Argan Oil

42) My favorite desert is cheesecake

43) I love loud people but not to loud or I get really annoyed

44) I wear my pajamas all day long since I HATE casual wear

45) I love it every time I get a new follower or email I get happy for no reason!

46) whenever people ask me to do their hair APPARENTLY I hurt them (I don’t know what their talking about)

47) My favorite animals are kittens an rabbits

48) Growing up the only person who was there for me was Demi lovatos songs, every time I had a bad day or was upset I listened to her songs

49) I cry ALOT

50) I am not very active …. Like at all

Haha well that’s 50 facts about me and let me just say, that was HAARD!!!!

Dreaming isn’t achieving doing is achieving

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I think we ALL know by know how hard chasing after our dreams are. It takes a lot of time and dedication.

Just like taking an exam. The only way you can certainly pass it is by revising. a lot.

I have always wanted to be an actress ever since the age of 6.

7 years gone, I kind of changed my mind.

My confidence has been thrown out the window and I don’t know how to get it back. I do try my best by not caring about others opinions, but I don’t try. I just think I don’t care.

Thinking I don’t care makes it easier but sometimes I just feel alone. No one to talk to.

My friendship groups have been cut down after a lot of crying and screaming and just some horrible drama.

I would tell my mum but she asks so many questions I don’t tell her anything at all. Whenever she finds out she gets upset and I tell her it’s because of her annoying questions but she never listens.

I do love my mum more than anyone in the world but. Well there’s really no explanation …

People say things that aren’t true all the time and it does my head in but oh well. I know it’s not true and as long as the people I care about know its not true I’m fine.

What I’ve realized is that if I really want something. I have to try my best.

Ever since I’ve made my WordPress account (3 months ago) I don’t know why I just feel like I can achieve anything now.

I already have 1,900+ views and 130+ followers. That achievement took a lot of hard work but I got it.

I bragged about it to everyone I knew in person and online and I have to say. It was REALLY effective!

My friend came up to me the other day and said ‘will I ever fulfill my dreams?’.

Im kind of a mother to my friends as they tell me everything and always listen to me. Also I do kind of tell them of when they misbehave. That’s so weird coming from a 13 yr old!

My friend who asked me that question used to constantly earn detentions and skip class. After thousands of lectures I gave to her, she finally listened and I am so so so so proud of her :)


I told her that were only 13 (shes 12) we have a long way ahead of us but I don't think she listened. I'm not sure on what she wants to be but what I want to be a writer or journalist.

I write songs, do blogs and I am currently writing a book at the moment about football!

Yes I am a huge fan of Real Madrid. IKER CASILLAS 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

My uncle said he will help me publish my book when I have done and I hope it becomes successful so bad!

The only reason why I have achieved so much at the moment is because I tried hard for it and found out that working hard really DOES pay off.

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Appreciating what you have

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Today my friend said to me ‘I’m so ugly’ when I called her pretty. I told her why she was attention seeking and her face went totally blank.

It sounds a bit mean but what I actually said was that she is lucky to look what she looks like and saying she is ugly is just being ungrateful to god.

Personally I believe that the word ‘ugly’ should not be used for absolutely anything since it truly does not have meaning.

People with everything don’t appreciate things like people who have absolutely nothing.

The other day in geography my class watched this short clip about how different a child’s life is in the US compared to a child’s life in China.

While the child in the US was getting ready for school, brushing his teeth and leaving the tap on getting distracted by the tv, the child in China was getting yelled at because he fell sleep whilst he was working.

I felt so bad for the Chinese child, I felt so grateful for everything I have.

The thought of me waking up everyday at 6am without eating anything for breakfast or the night before is unimaginable.

Also the child was only 7 and he was making shoes in a dirty bad conditioned warehouse.

Everyone is beautiful some people just don’t see it in their eyes.

I remember how much I was picked on for being ugly but then I was just like so what. Why should I care about what they say I mean its not like its true.

Bullies bully others to make themselves happy but if they see that what there doing isn’t working, they eventually give up.

It’s funny how whenever I pass the people in the school halls who’ve caused trouble for me or said things about me in the past, don’t even look at me because I know there scared.

I eat like a beast and watch football in my pajamas all day without make up and my hair all crazed up to the ceiling. That’s who I am and I like it I don’t care about what others say about me.

The amount of people who have said to me that they care about what other people say about them is uncountable on my fingers.

I don’t care about what people say about me because I surround myself with good people I can talk to and trust. It helps a lot to know who’s really there for you and who never was.

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